Saturday, 25 January 2014

Bibli babli bo0



Why is it that the 1st lines that come into our own head are the really cheesy ones???
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- For not being too perfect-


Wednesday, 1 January 2014

With a Grateful Prayer and a Thankful Heart

Happy New Year =)


                    Love and best wishes for a BLESSED and FABULOUS 2014!!!! XOXOXO =D

Friday, 13 December 2013

Just stand up

for what I believe in.. It can be scary sometimes, seriously soooo scary!! Or is it the peer pressure or the fear of being rejected? Maybe it's the fear of losing job or friends or whatsoever.

As a matter of course, the world is filled with people who are going to try to walk all over us. They are going to try to put us down, they are going to try to make us feel 'stupid' and they are going to try to make us think that they are actually better than we are.

The sad part is that a lot of these people buy into their own lies. Reality is something they turn a blind eye to, as they are under the impression that the world has molded them to be smarter and better at getting what they want than most other people.

And these same people are going to try to make you feel like you will never amount to nothing without them and will take all the credit for all the good that comes out of this generation. They will try to take the spotlight and strip you from all the rewards you worked so hard for.



If you give them the opportunity to walk all over you and use you to increase their ego, they will do this every chance they get. Just stand up for what you believe in, even if it means you have to stand alone.

I either know it already or going to learn it the hard way, but the world will try to diminish the chances I have of succeeding and reaching my goals. It’s up to me to not allow this to happen. It’s reallyy up to me to stand up for what is in my heart and what I feel is right.

And alwayz remember that right and wrong is based off perception, so there is never a reason why only one person can be right or wrong ^^

Standing up for what I believe in is one of the most important skills I’ll need in ma life. The confidence and understanding of my perspective cause will greatly increase the likelihood of getting what I want out of this world.

My mind's made up. Don't confuse me with the facts. Come again? Don't get caught with this wrong-headed attitude!! =.=

I do have my own theories.. Apparently I do cuz some complex and tragic event supports my own view.. =p

And I believe that I can make a difference and do what I love to do more passionately and effectively than anyone else.

Gave-a-mind fusion article-a-shot ..

Thought it.. Blogged it.. =D

Friday, 6 December 2013

Soul-mate

When you meet your soul mate, you don't recognize the face. You don't walk up to that person and know by looking at the person he or she is ur soul mate. Many times you might brought together by circumstances that seem like coincidence. It's about feeling of being awakened. And for me, I was totally taken off guard and, at first, was totally thrown off balance.. like the rug had been pulled under my feet. It is like you were asleep until you were touched by that kindred soul and then u are awakened and nothing is ever the same again. You know now that life before was not life but a dim existence and that up until that touch life was OK. If the feelings are so intense that it scares you and you run away, it won't last. I tried it. It felt great but it was also scary. I had never felt like that before with anyone.. ever. There will be no denying it like you won't be able to get this person out of ur mind n ur heart. He or she is part of you now and nothing will change it. The thought of them will send chills down your spine. You'll know that even if you are apart trying to deny that feeling NOTHING that happens will change the way you feel. Just the touch of their hand on urs gives u a feeling that cannot be described. Being in their presence will give you a feeling that is unparalleled. This particular person never leaves your thoughts and your heart. It will like that person is somehow imprinted into you now. A part of you that will remain no matter what.

 I believe that soul mates exist on a higher level of love. There is a strong connection that is present that is simply just there. It's like you can communicate with that person without even speaking. But, you cannot always be with your soul mate either which can seem like a really cruel joke or something. There may be some circumstances where you cannot be together. In this kinda of situation, life can be quite miserable but you can learn to live with it. Some people are trying to do that now. However, its not easy at all. There is a strong sadness and feeling of emptiness if you cannot be with your soul mate. There have been many times that I wished I had never met my soul mate but it was never up to me. It just happened like it was something that was supposed to happen even though we cannot be together. It was very difficult for me to understand that and I question why I had to meet this person that I cannot be with. Fortunately, for me, I am kinda busy abit and that helps some but sometimes I often get this sinking feeling and almost physically at the thought of never seeing this person again. Just being around him was better than not seeing him at all. It's been over a year now since I last saw him. It is very difficult and there are days that I felt like a part of me has died. It;s like the lights have been dimmed. I've always have been an upbeat person in general but there is sadness that seems to hang over me many days even though most people around me don't know it.(actually I prefer tht most). I've gotten pretty good at hiding it from strangers and colleagues but my family (especially my mom) knew it. Well, you will absolutely know without a doubt when u meet ur soul mate. You may not know immediately what is happening but trust me, it won't take long and you will know soon. For me, I was not even looking or thinking along the lines of meeting someone, especially in the situation that I was in when I met mine. I felt kinda of... emotionally ambushed but it felt really good. I will never be the same as I was before. I am happy that I met him and I am sad tht I don't get time to spend with him at all. I missed him terribly and would do just about anything to see his face again, and just have a conversation of any kind at all !! Maybe someday it will happen. I've accepted that it may not.

The part about life never be the same, picking up the energy is the hardest part for me but although the physical connection has not happened, the spiritual energy and inner connection is just so strong at times, I find it almost overwhelming, I distinctively know when he is thinking about me or close to contacting me or missing me. The obstacles are against us so much and I have always pray for him. He has always been in the back of mind and I wished tht I had never met him (during strange coincidences of course). I also wished that there was a way to get my mind erased, or for my heart to be taken away because sometimes it is too much to bear. The connection makes me feel drained physically, mentally and emotionally and for my own peace of mind tht I have had to walk away to gather myself in my own thoughts and concentrate on myself before I become so weak from this intensity. There is a fantastic book called 'When souls connect' by Steve Gun which describes the push and pull of the soul mate connection and how they lesser evolved soul will run in fear. Hmmm.. these kinda feelings are not called as obsession. I could say that my instincts are always right.. always!!

I cannot believe that I'm posting this kinda of things at this time.. I should enter into an usual non REM sleep zone but I didn't.. Assignmts?? Exams??

STOP being an emo darling.... Arrrgghxxxx

 Alryt... gudnyt..

Monday, 4 November 2013

Wic WAY?

Is life about finding and getting answers?

Or is the journey to finding the answers more about living...?  And sometimes you find that you never have the answers...?  So am I suppose to just be content with being the eager one who is forever chasing for answers?  So I try everything, sample everything...not really knowing what I want, or what is best so I just taste everything?

And yet, a very good advice, simple advice I got recently is:

"Stay focused, and you'll knock it out of the park!"


Sunday, 29 September 2013

MODERN INDEPENDENT WOOMAN ??



"shudders at the thought of the headline"

I am a self confessed modern independent woman =) and tired out of being misunderstood but in my opinion (thank God for freedom of speec!) this is about some of what I think. My lists here I come..

1. The word is Independent. I don't need to define independent. Okay for those who still don't know..

(a) I need something, I get it. Don't be surprised to hear I got something without your knowledge. I had a lot of problems with my dad and 'male' siblings like how I went here and there and get some job done. The reason a woman gets past primary school, secondary school then to university means she has some of those killer instincts men have. They need something, they get it. Understand our "man ego" to get our own stuff. It doesn't mean you are any less superior or not needed. As Ne-Yo would say A woman who wants you but doesn't need you.

If you still don't get it, tune to Red fim, a song played by the minute
Miss Independent-Neyo

2. We hardly understand the male ego and why it needs to be pampered. Thankfully, there is a book on this one lately. Would never have figured on our own and anyway there are so many men to remind us of the fact. My male colleagues are experts on this matter.. lol

3. When we read "He is just not that into You" we felt like tossing it on the dust bin. We probably know that you are just that not into us.. But independent women with that instinct still doesn't want to lose. That is the main reason we keep on.. especially if the opportunity for good s* looks promising. Other than that it is for ego satisfaction.

4. We did well in school, we do well in our jobs, we start to think we can do well in everything. We still think we can fix your career, job, home. Lynette (every1 knws her unless if u nvr evr watch DH) of Desperate Housewives struggles to keep a healthy balance between what a woman is meant to be and the fact that she is smarter than her husband.. Pathetic it seems :\

5.If we don't know how to fix a tyre, a bulb ( you are kidding me right) or those other things, we will learn it and from someone who knows it better than you. A mechanic perhaps.. If  only you could understand. Sometimes we pretend we can't fix the bulb just to appease that famous male ego. Well, 'sometimes' =p

6. We understand you (might or might not) hate smart women and you will keep saying demeaning things to hurt us. This is what I have gone through. It's not my fault I happened to read a lot of books (that makes one smart, huh??) and especially where you are as read as I am, it's just plain weirdo traditional shame on you thinking. A generalized statement =.= No hard feelings, guys!!! =p

7. Learn to live with us. Less demanding!!

8. We don't think the world revolves around men. Why don't you just live with it. Many traditional women think that life is all about their men, which is what probably God intended it to be before he made us smarter (even God changes his mind) yeah like you have not seen children are born with their eyes wide open these days! But really we love you. That's it. But you don't have the last word on everything. Well. most of the time perhaps..

9. We love you as you are. For reals. We will even buy you a watch to show it! =D

10. We don't get the part that a woman cannot have platonic male friends. (sort of undeniable fact for some socialized people)

11.When we meet a man, we assess him on very many levels. Providing for us is not one of those, this we can figure out. We look at your ability to say the truth, your honesty,capability/liability, dominance, 'some beyond like secret weapons', your family members (fly background), and your ability to sustain conversation on various things and etc =))


Isn't it easy not challengeable???? =D