Why is My Lecturer STALKING Me???....
I was 20 years old and a student too . And you may wonder, or it may sound disgusting, but the stalker was not an unknown person -- he was a lecturer from our college department. . All my coursemates and friends like him because of his fantastic personality. He is a married man but his wife isn't here. The way he dressed up and teaching was seriously nice. He was also one of the most respected people on campus -- even I respected him before I experienced his nonsensical behaviour.
Many things happened but I'm not gonna tell you all about it (because this page wont be enough for it... hahahhaha =p)
Only the highlighted one..=)
On my second year,he handled one of our subjects and by the end of that semester, I started encountering his unusual behaviour. He used to stare at me, give me a smile when I walked down the corridor or on campus, and he was constantly observing me.
For a few days I ignored it -- I thought I may be mistaken, but the situation got worse day by day. When we had classes , he would be there; he would sit opposite me and stare continuously. I started ignoring him and he would get angry, scolding some student or the other for some silly reason, in order to draw my attention and intimidate me.
Sometimes he talked in double meaning where I couldn't understand of what he is trying to say.
In the class he tend to tell everyone like why this girl (he mentioned my name) always kept silent and look liked a good girl?
And yeah of course always smiling??
First I thought it is a compliment from a lecturer to a student. Then the way he expresses, it was some kind weird on the next day. I was wondering???...why me??...
I used to sit on the front line in all classes. But after I experienced his different behaviour towards me, I tried not to sit at the front seat and sat at the 3rd line, in the middle of my friends. But again he starts. He asked me to sit infront, if not he couldn't give his lecture. Its not COULDN'T, its WON'T. He sounds like he is flirting with me and that was so awkward. All my classmates are shocked and turned to me just like Im the one who have to be blamed. Only my friends didnt support their view of point. I felt very embrassed.Having tough times like this in your whole life is a nightmare of hell!! I have no other choice. He wont handle or cont our class unless I've move my position to the infront seat. But still I'm brave enough to replied him back that "Im sorry but I would like to sit here and I'm comfortable with it ".... This time (ME) no more smiling at all. Only during his classes, I will be like some kind of stoned face. He still forced me. Omg!!.. I bite my lips and felt I'm like a slave or a helpless girl. I moved to infront seat. 'They' tend to talk behind me that I'm seducing him and that word was the most .... I couldn't imagine it. Oh grossus...!!!
Even after-that-day, I and my Chinese friend was on the way to campus library. Suddenly we met him as he was on his way to attend his meeting at outstation and yet he saw us. I really wana escape from him as I walked a bit faster but he called me."la, again get caught". I stopped, turned to him. He telling me that he is going to attend his meeting. Im wondering for awhile. So, what I supposed to do or say? and who cares? I buat blurr je. My Chinese friend is the one who was curious and asked him further questions but then he keep looking at me and replyiing to me.... I don't understand. I really wana say this. (Excuse me, its not me who are you are talking to. It's her and can you stop looking at me like that. It's damn annoying). "Answer her, you idiottt" I really thought of it bt never ever had an oppurtunity to voice it out. All I did is just thinking of it.. never ever have the guts to yell !!! After he left, she told me that she was so upset with his hillarious behaviour and she said those words to me" now I understood your situations and how you felt".
ME~> Glad u are...at last..
Things carried on the same way for nearly five months. I told one of my best friend but she said that he was playing with me. Playing???....There are a lot of girls out there. More prettier and more nicer. Why me??.. He is not playing. I know. Like what I've said in last post about the stalker. They usually look at other places and flirting crazily.
On the last lesson, I calmed myself and pray to GOD very well that today will be the end for everything. I entered into the classroom and as usual he stared at me and asked "so today how are you" and I thought for one minute should I layan him or just walk away. I said 'fine" and sit on the seat at the back (since my batch is only 13 of them and the classroom is quite large). After that everything was ok. The lesson was going as normal too. But then he suddenly ask me whether I'm pretending? I seriously hate that word. PRETENDING!!!.. I just kept my mouth shut and then he asked me about some new disease. I couldn't explained about it because that is the first time I've heard about it.
SO, I said a bit politely " I don't know sir" but then he continuously asking me same the question over again and again. Is he deaf?? I tried to control myself but I can't. Finally, I ended up with bursting out. I exploded like a volcano, I roared
"I said I don't know means I DON'T KNOW!!!... Got It..???"
Seriously, that was the first time I behaved like this. Everyone are shocked and yeah of course you should see his face. Damn scared!!! The room and the ppl was suddenly changed tremendously and getting their silence treatment instead. I cannot believe that I DID IT. I guess my voice raised in a way of suppressing anger and it echoed back it seems. Then he was like blurr "Errr, its ok, let me teach you. You can sit now".
After that, I couldn't concentrate in class anymore. But whatever it is, I have to be strong and I AM STRONG!! So, I was note down all the things he taught. Tears dropped... dropping... and still dropping.. No one knows it.Only the paper that I'm writing on it.. 'IT' knows very much.
After few minutes, he came to me and was standing very near to me. I buat tak tau je. He said "your handwriting is beautiful and neat". I keep quiet and did't even notice him. He gave everyone break for awhile and then he sat on the infront of my seat and keep looking... looking... looking and looking at me!!!
I couldn't stand it. Those awkward and disgusted moments. Tears dropped. It's been half and hour and still I'm looking in to the paper. He went away then. All I know is the ink of pen on the paper was being faded away...
That semester finished. But still on the next sem, I met him again coincidently. My friends are with me. I thought he might change a bit but he is not. Still the same. He asked me why I never ever come and visit him after the class and then he also asked the silly questions.... yuckkk annoying!!! "Did you forget me, aren't you'? And again my mouth was like zipped. Such a jerk!!! How dare you? (was thinking)
Since I'm at the lecturer's room, I controlled myself and tell him that "Sorry sir,I don't have time for that nor it's important for me". I walked away without waiting for his reply. Until now, I didn't see him at all. Thanks to GOD.
This is the second time I'm revealing my problem publicly. Actually its not a problem at all. It can be referred as one of my life experiences. Many girls experience this kind of situation and I hope I never face it ever again.
So my advice is, just ignore it and concentrate on your work. Stalkers want to do everything in a disguised way, they are scared to make things public. Now I'm 21, but at a young age everything seemed new and at that point in time, we can't take any step to confront them.
Be STRONG and BRAVE!!!!
*LOVE*
Not ONE.. Had More Than One Annoying-Stupidish-Stalkers...
Why guys like to disturb girls...even th0ugh 'they' (referin to gul yo) didn't d0 anything.. It's always the girls wh0se will be the victims or preys...
Two weeks ago, I went to a tailor shop near by ma hostel. I really dnt wana do this bt ma uniform's terrible condition make me to do it. If its ripped off, I can sew it. But the problem is the zip rosak lo. Usually I prefer lady tailor than man tailor. This is my first time I went there without ma m0m's permission cuz I have n0 other choices as I have to wear ma uniform for tomorrow's practical training.
1st day
I went there with ma collegemate and Im wearing ma uniform cuz (I balek frm w0rk n straight away went there. That tailor was ok la. He asked my frnd whether Im new student here cuz he never ever meet me before and my friend told him tht Im her collegemate and its almost going to be 3 years. He was so shocked and start to talk with me. I gave him a smile (usually I gave it to all of them who I've meet in my whole day..=).. And yeah of course I was telling him about the uniform only... not other t0pics which aren't important. I used to call him anne (brother in Tamil), cuz he l0oked like a abit older enough, I mean not so 0ld.. Its like around 27 or 28 something. And it calling him lyk that itself have an identity in my Rulez Regulationz under Act 001..hehe
2nd day
Again I went there to take my baju, I mean I have to go or I should go cuz I let my baju there meh. Waitttt, whta im crapping heh?? I paid for it. ok Done!! He was showing me his-so-called-humble-face to me. Seriously, I never ever bother all those things. As long my work is done, Im sattisfieeeed with it.That's all.
3rd day
Errr...Have to go again cuz he wrongly sew it. I have no idea whether he did purposely or wht???..hmmm... but then I thought maybe 'tersilap kut'. Should not blame one for what they have done to you without proper investigation had been done on them,ryt?? So,on that day,I went back from watching movie with ma buddies and I asked them to take dinner 1st at the near Indian restaurant cuz I knw most of their stomaches was mogok-ing and that bugged me soo much. Wel, that restaurant was our fav indeed. N me???....heeerrrmmmm.. Even though my lil tummy was bugging either. I couldnt help it as much as I can. Duties FIRST!! I went again to the shop t0 take ma uniform bt still my kadazan frnd (my mami..=D) followed me there, as a protector perhaps =p
Once I entered the shop, he looked at me like shocked and gave me-tht-some-kinda-of-look...whtever la.. I dnt knw.. Hate it totally!!
N he started the conversation 1st... and well the conversation was as follows (its in Tamil actuaaaly bt Im translating into English)...
He : hel0 gurl, thought u wont come t0 tk ur baju...
Me : hye.. errrmmm... I hv to..cuz if nt.. I c0uldn't go to work tomorrow. I thought u will close ur shop.
Thank god u didnt..=D
He : Oh..dnt worry.. Actually, Im waiting 4 u just now... (he smiled like some kind of..eeeee)
Me : Ok... where is ma baju???... Completed or not?? (shortage of time and Im hungry wei)
He : Yeah..U can try here.. Just go to the behind room and use it..
Me : 0wh ok.. nevermind.. times up.. I hv t0 go nw..(NVR EVER TRUST ANY1!!)
He : no..u hv to..Then only u knw whether its perfect or not..
Me : hmm..k..(eeeee...geramnya)
After I tried my baju...(actually I didn't as Im so scared. Just waited inside the room and look all over the room for a while and keluar tellin him that it suits me well. Sometime u should and have to lie, for a good reason eventually. Ma mami ( de kadazan gurl was waiting for me outside) n inside the shop only me n him..alone!!!.. n its night some more.. Seriously I dnt believe this guy.
Me : It suits me perfectly..hw much i should pay??
He : Where are u from???..
Me : Malaysia...=p
He : specifically??
Me : Penang...
He : U must hv husband ryt...
Me : wht??? n0.. Im still a stdnt... n stdying!!! ( wh0 r u t0 ask tht-strt to tok crap it seems)...
He : U shld hv a boyfrnd..ryt..if Im not mistaken..
Me : Hw cum u cn say so sure??
He : I know...
Me : ............ (wads ur problem man)
He : U r looking so beautiful..ur smile is damn cute..the way u talk n ur expressions...people will fall for it..
Me : yeah ryt...(irritated abit)
He : Ur parents working as wht???...hw many siblings u hv...r they will accept me as their son in law???...
Me : They r teachers.. n excuse me y shld they accept u as their son in law???...Can u do it lil abit faster..(getting angry)
Actuaalllyyyy..he was sewing ma uniform again...purposely he is doing i knw...so tht he cn talk to me...say all those nonsense things!!!
He : u knw wads ma age???
Me : 30 plus (hehhehe...cuz he lookin older la...)
He : omg..no Im nt.. Im just 24..
Me : wht???... ( whtevr ....wh0 cares)
n my mami entered the ro0m bt then this guy continuously talking like a mad guy...
He : if I gt ur num..I alwys wil cl u... n tel u the updates of this tailor shop...
Me : Its ok... I w0nt need it.. nor its important 4 me...(arrrgggghhhxxx....cn u plz let me go)
He : oh come on... I like u so much..cn I f ur num???...
Me : Is this the way u will treat ur customers???... (shame on u)
n I alrdy cl u as anne...remember???
He : I didnt asking all the girls num ...who evr came here...u r de 1st girl im asking for it...
n yeah if everyone cl me anne..then hw im going to get married???
Me : That's not ma prob...gv me my unif0rm nw...( a bit strictly)...
He : plz...gv me ur num.. I wont distrb u...
Me : nop.. sorry Im nt that type of gurl...Im leaving...(annoying la u..)
He : u r looking more pretty whn u r getting angry wit me....
Me : Whtever...( I wont gv a damn to whtever he said)...
He : I will wait for u...u hv to come here...ahaha..
Me : Stop mumbling!!!... (Im off..believe me I wont c0me here anymore.. felt so stucked up with u..
I've treated u as my anne...bt u... get lost la u!!!)
Even before v keluar, he was asking ma contact num...agaainnn n aggaaain... like a crazy guy... Im sure he is!!! N of course my mami cn undrstnd tht he is flirting wit me.. even though she dnt knw ma language and i nvr ever reveal anything of wht happened just now.. All she did is gv a warm hug as protective sign. I was too much craving for it. Its lyk "Dont worry, we are here for you" and yet this annoying-story was announced to all my frnds at restaurant afterwards. Aiy0o =(
Felt annoyed n sad t0o.. cuz wht make them change their mind n talking like a crap... I meant that guy??
Is that really make a sense tht If wearin uniform its diff...n if wearing jeans n blouse its difff????...I dnt understand...
Im really pissed off with him..Wht they want actually??? Hw c0me u can flirt n talking like rubbish 2 a gurl wh0 is a stranger n also ur customer.. The way he looking at me also I knew it... he's not making an eye contact with me..He was looking at someting else... thats seriously make me feel bad and insecure.. this is not the first time.. I've been go through alot before by tis kind of guys...since Im 13... Thank God... nothing serious happened to me cuz im always aware of the dangers thts awaiting 4 me out there.. Maybe my face was a kinda face which ppl like to buli?? I dnt know!!
At th0se awkward moments, I really missed my dad n brothers...
They r my guardians..Wherever i g0, they jaga me very well as Im the only one girl in ma fly.... like a Princess.. they r damn protective.. like soldiers bt only thing is they dnt hv their AK 47 guns with them...=p..(even my youngest brother who is only 14 years old, act muc mor protective if I g0 t0 pasar malam with him)... n yeah that day he ended up with get stressed up and more worried cuz there's r some guys wh0 looked at me 'lyk one kind'....hehehhe...pity my br0...after that, i nvr go out t0 pasar malam with him...only I wil if all ma brothers n parents g0 out 2gather...=D...
Wht I 've learnt from my life experiences is ~> A Woman really needs the Protection of Man... no matter.. HE cn be her's dad, husband, friend, lover n brother... and of course Woman need to be taught to protect herself indeed...=D..
Well, bubye for now!!
*Love*
