U or Me?

Is it u, or is it me
This is pathetic, sardonic, sadistic..
It creeps in me, unseeing, unsightly..
Like a thallus, it spreads all over..
Improper yet effective, burning deep..

I feel ashamed, anger at u, at me?
It's confusing, banging my head..
My temple aches contemplating..
I wish I knew, if it was me..
I'm sorry..

It was new, dark, unnatural..
Unfamiliar to me, panicking on the ship.
It turned and I could not swim..
I still was silent not wanting u back..
But want u back terribly..
I wish I knew how..
In a different time or a second chance..
I will make u glad..

Oh my English...

Words getting stucked in my head last time..like counting million stars..Dreaming of how it all could be. But none can say what lies ahead..hmm..well, well, well, totally blanked out..How I suppose to start my journey.. I mean blogging?..without any references.. My brain gets into the hyper action mode and starts posting all these posts. It's been almost a year where I lastly touch de novels again cuz of the practical trainingggg..!!! So,here I am. Currently blurred- in a situation of something vaguely or indistinctly perceived..Then, he came, made an entry..my SAVIOR..! my Teman.. I felt some kinda secured and totally happy.. m nt sure whether he is reading all ma posts-that's probably because.. HE is a very busy man and maybe couldn't have much more time indeed to be spent as a blogger but still manage to. M not praising nor complimenting him. Better if they weren't called as "compliments". Maybe if they were called "mission-critical observations", or "actionable intelligence", or "man points". Keep thinking and wondering "What are you, a centaur?". Such an Awesome guy I've never ever met before. So proud of him and felt whole heartily thankful to (You-Know-Who)..=) just a pure thought..
 Whatsoevar, I'm back to my past again where my literature biz were made under some circumstances and totally widened up now. Grammar being improved I guess..=) and advertising scenario of family been reduced a bit..forsaken (00,) hehe.. Blogging makes one appreciates every micro things happening around em...

*To be continued*

Some Forever's Are Real.

Why your family is the best you can ever have,

*They welcome you with a smile and a hug and heat up dinner for you even when you arrive home well past midnight.

*They listen to the stories you bring back home-good or sucky-minus the judgements and still genuinely care.

*They don’t forget your birthday. Ever.

*They love you so unconditionally that you feel like opening up to them about every silly little thing that’s troubling you. But you wouldn’t do that as you know your tears will well their eyes up too, and you can’t bear that sight in a million years.

*They are always there for you. You can take them for granted and hurt them as you please, they will still forgive you.

*You have trouble hiding that little drop of tear that rolls down your cheek when you bid them goodbye at the bus stand. Every time.

*You know you'll come back to them eventually, wherever you get carried away to in life.

*They're your Past, Present and Future.

* LOVE*

Reasons To Smile

A smiling face doesn’t mean there’s no sorrow it rather means that they have courage to deal with it.

Top 10 reasons to smile!

 Smiling is a great way to make yourself stand out while helping your body to function better. Smile to improve your health, your stress level, and your attractiveness. Smiling is just one fun way to live longer read about the others and try as many as you can.

1. Smiling Makes Us Attractive 


We are drawn to people who smile. There is an attraction factor. We want to know a smiling person and figure out what is so good. Frowns, scowls and grimaces all push people away — but a smile draws them in (avoid these smile aging habits to keep your smile looking great).


2. Smiling Changes Our Mood


Next time you are feeling down, try putting on a smile. There’s a good chance you mood will change for the better. Smiling can trick the body into helping you change your mood.


3. Smiling Is Contagious


When someone is smiling they lighten up the room, change the moods of others, and make things happier. A smiling person brings happiness with them. Smile lots and you will draw people to you.


4. Smiling Relieves Stress


Stress can really show up in our faces. Smiling helps to prevent us from looking tired, worn down, and overwhelmed. When you are stressed, take time to put on a smile. The stress should be reduced and you’ll be better able to take action


5. Smiling Boosts Your Immune System


Smiling helps the immune system to work better. When you smile, immune function improves possibly because you are more relaxed. Prevent the flu and colds by smiling.


6. Smiling Lowers Your Blood Pressure


When you smile, there is a measurable reduction in your blood pressure. Give it a try if you have a blood pressure monitor at home. Sit for a few minutes, take a reading. Then smile for a minute and take another reading while still smiling. Do you notice a difference?


7. Smiling Releases Endorphins, Natural Pain Killers and Serotonin


Studies have shown that smiling releases endorphins, natural pain killers, and serotonin. Together these three make us feel good. Smiling is a natural drug.


8. Smiling Lifts the Face and Makes You Look Younger


The muscles we use to smile lift the face, making a person appear younger. Don’t go for a face lift, just try smiling your way through the day — you’ll look younger and feel better.


9. Smiling Makes You Seem Successful
Smiling people appear more confident, are more likely to be promoted, and more likely to be approached. Put on a smile at meetings and appointments and people will react to you differently.


10. Smiling Helps You Stay Positive


Try this test: Smile. Now try to think of something negative without losing the smile. It’s hard. When we smile our body is sending the rest of us a message that “Life is Good!” Stay away from depression, stress and worry by smiling.


So, keep smiling always !!!


*Love*

Stalkers...

Not ONE.. Had More Than One Annoying-Stupidish-Stalkers...

Why guys like to disturb girls...even th0ugh 'they' (referin to gul yo) didn't d0 anything.. It's always the girls wh0se will be the victims or preys...
Two weeks ago, I went to a tailor shop near by ma hostel. I really dnt wana do this bt ma uniform's terrible condition make me to do it. If its ripped off, I can sew it. But the problem is the zip rosak lo. Usually I prefer lady tailor than man tailor. This is my first time I went there without ma m0m's permission cuz I have n0 other choices as I have to wear ma uniform for tomorrow's practical training.

1st day
I went there with ma collegemate and Im wearing ma uniform cuz (I balek frm w0rk n straight away went there. That tailor was ok la. He asked my frnd whether Im new student here cuz he never ever meet me before and my friend told him tht Im her collegemate and its almost going to be 3 years. He was so shocked and start to talk with me. I gave him a smile (usually I gave it to all of them who I've meet in my whole day..=).. And yeah of course I was telling him about the uniform only... not other t0pics which aren't important. I used to call him anne (brother in Tamil), cuz he l0oked like a abit older enough, I mean not so 0ld.. Its like around 27 or 28 something. And it calling him lyk that itself have an identity in my Rulez Regulationz under Act 001..hehe

2nd day
Again I went there to take my baju, I mean I have to go or I should go cuz I let my baju there meh. Waitttt, whta im crapping heh?? I paid for it. ok Done!! He was showing me his-so-called-humble-face to me. Seriously, I never ever bother all those things. As long my work is done, Im sattisfieeeed with it.That's all.

3rd day
Errr...Have to go again cuz he wrongly sew it. I have no idea whether he did purposely or wht???..hmmm... but then I thought maybe 'tersilap kut'. Should not blame one for what they have done to you without proper investigation had been done on them,ryt?? So,on that day,I went back from watching movie with ma buddies and I asked them to take dinner 1st at the near Indian restaurant cuz I knw most of their stomaches was mogok-ing and that bugged me soo much. Wel, that restaurant was our fav indeed. N me???....heeerrrmmmm.. Even though my lil tummy was bugging either. I couldnt help it as much as I can. Duties FIRST!! I went again to the shop t0 take ma uniform bt still my kadazan frnd (my mami..=D) followed me there, as a protector perhaps =p
Once I entered the shop, he looked at me like shocked and gave me-tht-some-kinda-of-look...whtever la.. I dnt knw.. Hate it totally!!
N he started the conversation 1st... and well the conversation was as follows (its in Tamil actuaaaly bt Im translating into English)...

He : hel0 gurl, thought u wont come t0 tk ur baju...

Me : hye.. errrmmm... I hv to..cuz if nt.. I c0uldn't go to work tomorrow. I thought u will close ur shop.
        Thank  god u didnt..=D

He : Oh..dnt worry.. Actually, Im waiting 4 u just now... (he smiled like some kind of..eeeee)

Me : Ok... where is ma baju???... Completed or not?? (shortage of time and Im hungry wei)

He : Yeah..U can try here.. Just go to the behind room and use it..

Me : 0wh ok.. nevermind.. times up.. I hv t0 go nw..(NVR EVER TRUST ANY1!!)

He : no..u hv to..Then only u knw whether its perfect or not..

Me : hmm..k..(eeeee...geramnya)

After I tried my baju...(actually I didn't as Im so scared. Just waited inside the room and look all over the room for a while and keluar tellin him that it suits me well. Sometime u should and have to lie, for a good reason eventually. Ma mami ( de kadazan gurl was waiting for me outside) n inside the shop only me n him..alone!!!.. n its night some more.. Seriously I dnt believe this guy.

Me : It suits me perfectly..hw much i should pay??

He : Where are u from???..

Me : Malaysia...=p

He : specifically??

Me : Penang...

He : U must hv husband ryt...

Me : wht??? n0.. Im still a stdnt... n stdying!!! ( wh0 r u t0 ask tht-strt to tok crap it seems)...

He : U shld hv a boyfrnd..ryt..if Im not mistaken..

Me : Hw cum u cn say so sure??

He : I know...

Me : ............ (wads ur problem man)

He : U r looking so beautiful..ur smile is damn cute..the way u talk n ur expressions...people will fall for it..

Me : yeah ryt...(irritated abit)

He : Ur parents working as wht???...hw many siblings u hv...r they will accept me as their son in law???...

Me : They r teachers.. n excuse me y shld they accept u as their son in law???...Can u do it lil abit faster..(getting angry)

Actuaalllyyyy..he was sewing ma uniform again...purposely he is doing i knw...so tht he cn talk to me...say all those nonsense things!!!

He : u knw wads ma age???

Me : 30 plus (hehhehe...cuz he lookin older la...)

 He : omg..no Im nt.. Im just 24..

Me : wht???... ( whtevr ....wh0 cares)

n my mami entered the ro0m bt then this guy continuously talking like a mad guy...

He : if I gt ur num..I alwys wil cl u... n tel u the updates of this tailor shop...

Me : Its ok... I w0nt need it.. nor its important 4 me...(arrrgggghhhxxx....cn u plz let me go)

He : oh come on... I like u so  much..cn I f ur num???...

Me : Is this the way u will treat ur customers???... (shame on u)
        n I alrdy cl u as anne...remember???

He : I didnt asking all the girls num ...who evr came here...u r de 1st girl im asking for it...
       n yeah if everyone cl me anne..then hw im going to get married???

Me : That's not ma prob...gv me my unif0rm nw...( a bit strictly)...

He : plz...gv me ur num.. I wont distrb u...

Me : nop.. sorry Im nt that type of gurl...Im leaving...(annoying la u..)

He : u r looking more pretty whn u r getting angry wit me....

Me : Whtever...( I wont gv a damn to whtever he said)...

He : I will wait for u...u hv to come here...ahaha..

Me : Stop mumbling!!!... (Im off..believe me I wont c0me here anymore.. felt so stucked up with u..
        I've treated u as my anne...bt u... get lost la u!!!)

Even before v keluar, he was asking ma contact num...agaainnn n aggaaain... like a crazy guy... Im sure he is!!! N of course my mami cn undrstnd tht he is flirting wit me.. even though she dnt knw ma language and i nvr ever reveal anything of wht happened just now.. All she did is gv a warm hug as protective sign. I was too much craving for it. Its lyk "Dont worry, we are here for you" and yet this annoying-story was announced to all my frnds at restaurant afterwards. Aiy0o =(

Felt annoyed n sad t0o.. cuz wht make them change their mind n talking  like a crap... I meant that guy??
Is that really make a sense tht If wearin uniform its diff...n if wearing jeans n blouse its difff????...I dnt understand...
Im really pissed off with him..Wht they want actually??? Hw c0me u can flirt n talking like rubbish 2 a gurl wh0 is a stranger n also ur customer.. The way he looking at me also I knew it... he's not making an eye contact with me..He was looking at someting else... thats seriously make me feel bad and insecure.. this is not the first time.. I've been go through alot before by tis kind of guys...since Im 13... Thank God... nothing serious happened to me cuz im always aware of the dangers thts awaiting 4 me out there.. Maybe my face was a kinda face which ppl like to buli?? I dnt know!!

At th0se awkward  moments, I really missed my dad n brothers...
They r my guardians..Wherever i g0, they jaga me very well as Im the only one girl in ma fly.... like a Princess.. they r damn protective.. like soldiers bt only thing is they dnt hv their AK 47 guns with them...=p..(even my youngest brother who is only 14 years old, act muc mor protective if I g0 t0 pasar malam with him)... n yeah that day he ended up with get stressed up and more worried cuz there's r some guys wh0 looked at me 'lyk one kind'....hehehhe...pity my br0...after that, i nvr go out t0 pasar malam with him...only I wil if all ma  brothers n parents g0 out 2gather...=D...

Wht I 've learnt from my life experiences is ~> A Woman really needs the Protection of Man... no matter.. HE cn be her's dad, husband, friend, lover n brother... and of course Woman need to be taught to protect herself indeed...=D..

Well, bubye for now!!

*Love*

Pisces Gurl

A Pisces female is full of womanly charms and at the very first glance , she will look like the girl every guy falls in love with. She looks totally vulnerable, very different from the modern, liberated girl of today. Almost every guy feels like taking her in his arms and protecting her from the big bad world. She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy friend that is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all. She is the one of these women who stand behind their husband and support them in every way they can. 


A Piscean female will never try to dominate her husband. Rather she will like it if you do the usual gallant gestures, like holding the door for her. She wants her man to love her, protect her and take good care of her..... She will lean on him completely, showing full confidence in his strength and abilities. This acts like a solid ego boost to almost every male. She will always be a patient listener, with whom you can share all your secret dreams, desires and hopes. She doesn't have a single masculine streak in her and if you are looking for the typical womanly traits, then Pisces girl is the one for you. She is totally feminine.....=D in all the seasons and at all the places. 

Symbol of Pisces

You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman. She loves small animal and gifted in training animals. She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it’s her nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover.She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one-night stand guy. She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin. Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. She is a hot lady that everyone wants her.

Whether she has a man in her life or not, she will never try to over-power any man. It’s not even in her thought. She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows how to please and how to comfort a man. If something is wrong, she will try to make other people belief that it’s must be because of someone else, not because of her love one. She will not push her man to be ambition but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now. A Pisces woman, if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills).She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her, then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next. A very complex character she is. You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not hurt anyone, and then you are wrong. You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie. She is a dreamer and love. The word “Love”, so she is the type who will buy gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well. Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman. She can be a total different person before and after.

She can be an angel before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out. She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone.She is the best lover and the most fantastic wife that a man can have in his entire life. She can sit adoringly with you, admiring your each and every quality. The warmth of her personality makes most the men relax in an instant and bask in the glory of their manhood....... Enough for the initial falling in and courtship period!

 She is the type of girl who will put their friends and family before themselves and also blessed with rich imagination and creativity... Usually, her's emotional logic allows her to have a good intuition and she always can see through people and understand others better than the rest of can. Sometimes, she can be very quite naive. Pisces girls are not the pushovers that they may seem, infact they have strength of character and will stand up for what they believe in and they can do hard work for something they believe in.....=D

 A Pisces female is very sentimental and even slightly harsh words can cause her to cry hours at end....(errmm not all of them). You can easily imagine what will happen when you really hurt her feelings. She may imagine herself to totally worthless and incapable of the fighting spirit to survive. Then, you will have to assure her that she is appreciated for her great wisdom, empathy and vast understanding. You know that whatever you are saying is true; it's just a matter of convincing her about the same. A part from that, Pisces is the most sensitive of all zodiac signs!!!...

 A Pisces girl is very shy, emotional and vulnerable. To protect her susceptibility, she often wears a cloak of wittiness, frigidity and independence. But they always will be the centre of attraction wherever they go and all kind of people are easily get attracted  to Pisces girls. Seriously, believe me they are like magnet and the vogue of the parties.. (aarrrghhxxx...ok i will continue the story =p)...She is a true romantic and secretly yearns for a person who will love her, cuddle her, hug her and make her feel loved and protected.  

She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that feeling by being stubborn. She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her. Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman. If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angel.

 A Piscean female will sacrifice her own dreams to realize the hopes of her children. She may not be good with finances, but will manage to save money if the situation so desires. She will remember the smallest incidents of your life, so you better remember her birthday and your anniversary. She may become dreamy once in a while, but then she will always be there with you, without being asked to. She is someone you will want to take care of, throughout your life!!!....

 

   Love Traits

• Affectionate

• Very Romantic

• Very Compassionate

• Devoted

• Adaptable

• Kind 

• Motivated

• Very humorous and funny

• Helpful

• Mysterious

• Easygoing people

• Extremely caring for their special person

• Sensitive

• Very Loyal

• Prefer serious relationships

• Their sensitivity and tuition allows them to see through people, so quite often Pisces individuals can see the truth even if you are not saying it.

  Best matches
   Scorpio and Pisces ~ A match made in Heaven (98%)
  Capricorn and Pisces ~ A Perfect match (98%)
  Cancer and Pisces ~ A Right match (96%)
  Taurus and Pisces ` (86%)

 (I doubt it.. Maybe Yes or Maybe No =p) Well, personally I felt tht one should spend some time with another to know  their real personality, not blindly accept each and everything that have been published here and there!!

N yeah 4gt t0 tel u all... Im als0 one of them... De PIsCES GUrL...!!!...=p hahahaxx.... pr0ud of it... brav0 Miz Vivacious s0ul... (hihi puji sendiri)...

*LovE*